i wonder if...

yes. WHATEVER thers no certainty in life.

 

and if ur gonna say hey thats not true. basically in life anything can happen. whether it is finger touching rainbows or shit, depending on what u expect.

 

AND whatever im talking nonsense. mainly because im so tired. but its not like i can blog at work. haha, its great being able to use the computer and not keep looking over the shoulder to see if someone doesnt like what ur doing.

 

well, in any case, i do get work done. BUT thats not what they're paying for. aiya whatever i am forever just spouting whatever.

okays, quick updates. im working at raffles place now. i got an awesome boss, awesome colleagues, and i can wear basically anything to work. so its great.

 

just that i dont wear skirts or dresses. i dont know why. but the office gives me abit of the creeps sometimes. so im trying to stay as plain as i could. BUT JEANS ARE GREATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT, i got so many. KINDA.

 

i just realised that i wont have much clothes to change in uni. i do have quite alot of clothes but i DO keep picking the same ones over and over again. and its retardo that some of my shirts are short and some of my pants are low. basically, im realy okay with it. but not alot of people are.

 

 

okay, sorry back to topic. quick updates.

im suddenly into alcohol and tea. like not together. but yeah. both beverages are good.

 

I TOTALY DECIDED to get my own teapot

and like a silver ball thingy that u can put tealeaves and stuff in it. then i'll invite friends over and we'll drink tea. how rad is that.

 

HAHAHAHA

 

 

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and i still really want a cat.

and i really want a band.

and i really want a cat

and i really want to have my own teapot.

and a cat

and maybe a new phone.

damn the iphone is delicious.

more t shirts

a cat

and muse in my house right now

and a psp

and allllllllllllllllllllll the scrubs and earl and friends and all those shows.

and cable so that i can watch mtv and national geographic and moviesworld

and a cat

and what else do i really want.

oh i want to be vegeterian

 

 

oh i was really thinking about vegeterians. i wonder whether it'd be warp to think that if everyone was vegeterians we wouldnt have a nid for animals and they'd be killded even more so its like lesser of them. But then again if we loved them so much thats why we didnt eat them they'd be all over the place

honestly, i cannot really imagine a world where nobody are carnivores.

 

 

 

i cant sleep well these days.

 

and im still not blogging coherently. okay, i promise everyone that my next blog entry would not be just a mess of my thoughts all thrown here.

i'll THINK before i talk.blog.

 

or i shld just have like one picture sorta thing.

yeah.

 

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9JnaRGEir6g

its been

 

A loooooooooooooooog time since i blogged. well, a few new things.

 

i got a new webcam. YAYS. no more grainy pictures (or so i thought, this webcam isnt any much better than the 6 year old webcam i got.) BUT still its prettier looking so thats alright.

 

secondly, i'm out of a job. im so glad cos i do wanna do my own stuff like for example bum around at home.

 

thirdly, i reformatted my computer. thanks to ziqing aka Qing aka yangoh. HES CD SO LOUSY. HAHA. okays fine u did help alot. =) i hate reformatting the computer myself.

 

and because i reformatted my computer, i could dl windows service pack 2 finally, and hence install my webcam and hence i dont know, i dont know why i wanted a new web cam. i guess i just hated my old 'grainy' one.

 

AND i hope that my new windows movie maker would be working.

 

AND btw, i made a video for SBeight. but unfortunately, no one was online to see it. it took me a few LATE nights to finish and i wanted it up by thursday night, which it did. and then nobody from our class got to watch it. even now. sigh.

 

oh, and results. yups, my results are good. i got BBC. splendid aye. its like, i know alot of people are probably thinking how could BBC be splendid. but it is alot for me, considering how after my first GP paper i actually gave up inside of me. and i was prepared to redo everything this year. i even packed all my notes and asked around for tuition fees.

 

so yes. i am proud of myself. beam.

 

 

 

and well, im eating sushi now. i love salmon sushi. and i hope tonight being the last day of chinese new year. i would get lou hei to eat. beacuse im in love with lou hei. and u cant get louhei any other time in the year. =(

 

 

anddddd... heres the video below. or on top. i've no idea. first time embedding video. ANYWAY, watch out for more since i think maybe sometimes when i feel a bit prettier i'd vlog. HAHAHAHA. oh my goodness aye, not only would u hear me you would see me. A WHOLE NEW gimension.

 

woots.

 

 

 

AND oh i to do alot of going out with people already. let me list

 

Jo times alot alot

Crystal

Ellen

Kiat

Daryl

Aaron

Yulin

Hintak

Syaq

Angela

 

and alot more. i decided to list u all first because u all are my priority need to go out people =)

 

 

 

AND, visit my grandma more.

 

 

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FRA641XF2ZU

 

oh. i missed syaq's gig today. =(

 

im really mad at my mom, but she bought me sushi. so. i guess. i dont know.

 

im such a wuss.

 

firstly, i've been having chest pains.

 

how weird.

 

 

secondly, the cny card came from my relative from brunei, was robbed of the angpao it had. the post people in either brunei or singapore, actually opened the card, then took out the angpao, then put it back into the envelope with our address typed on it.

 

so today they dhled another cny card with an angpow in it.

 

and it was so funny because the dhl guy decided to be funny and so he rang the bell

 

and i asked who it was, he said pizza hut delivery.

 

i was pleasnantly surprsied because i wanna eat pizza? then i asked my mom if she ordered pizza. and she said no. so i said hey we didnt order pizza. so the guy said oh no its a special delivery.

 

im like oh great. so i had to change, then he kept ringing thd oorbell and there it was, the card.

 

how fun dhl is.

 

 

 

honestly.

 

 

 

i dont feel happy. i feel like a dot. and a really stupid one at that.

 

 

someone cheer me ups. fil my little world right up right up...

my cubicle is so pretty now right. i totally keep koping boxes to cut and make my cubicle a bit more homely. im still collecting boxes. im sure i can build myself a room soon so that nobody can see me ebuddying. and i'll make me a cardboard bed and everything. yays.

okay. rmb how i said i was dying and everything and i dotn wanna work anymore?

WELL, i guess I HAVE to work on.

BECAUSE, i overspent and now i am on credit (MOM CREDIT, luckily no interests and stuff). well, the sucky thing is that i dont have nice heels and stuff still. i only got like four pairs.

well how did i overspend?

 

i went into FOX yesterday and loved everything so i bought nearly everything.

 

so i got myself four jeans one pants two tubes one spag.

 

thats not the funny thing. today my mom decided to clean out my cupboard and i discovered stuff that i bought but forgot about.

 

 

AND that i already bought two pants two weeks ago. AND THAT i already have eight pairs of jeans.

 

 

so now i got 12

 

 

 

=\

 

 

AND MAC eyeliner sucks. totally.

 

 

for one thing i dont know how to handle the wet eyeliner thing. and secondly it is bloody water proof. so i need to use the waterproof eye make up remover. AND bloody took me 20 minutes to try to remove? and still all the areas around my eyes were blackish? so i look like a panda. like seriously.

 

so even when i woke up this morning, the first thing i did was get more cottonwool and use the eye make up remover to clean off somemore. so that i dont look so scary.

 

 

and why did i put? just trying? cos my mom got it for free, and it was lying on the make up table. so i tried it last night for fun joy and laughter. HAHA so not laughing.

 

 

 

 

anyways, why ami talking like that? im feeling quite depressed. i feel like when i blog its different from when i speak.

 

whats been on my mind?

 

-my mother is very irritating when she decides to open the tap in the kitchen toilet. because she likes do it when im bathing so i get very little water. =(

-A level results.

=( a level results are not bothering me. i already know whats gonna happen. the only problemis that i dont wanna go collect it?

i mean, its like i'll know my results are going to be very very very bad. (note that i didnt say disappointing, because IM expecting it)

so i mean, i dont want to collect my results because i know even though i expect it, i am bound to cry.

 

and idont want to cry because its stupid. and daniel tan will give me the i told you so face.

 

or maybe or maybe not. i think that i tend to make him sound very bad. although he actually aint.

 

or i dont want to cry because i dont want my friends to think im sad. because i dont tink i am. but i dont want to pretend im happy for my friends on that day either. but if i dont smile and stuff they are bound to ask, hey dont be sad. and it'd make me sad. or else, people from other class or guitar ensemble are bound to ask me how i did.

 

i dont know. i dont want to collect. in fact, maybe i'll ask jo to help me take. but well, i heard that they just give u a paper slip like that. so thats cool everybody would know my results before me.

 

 

but if we would be having some sorta party after that i wouldnt mind going. i mean class party. not party party.

 

 

 

and suddenly, i decided that i want to have at least three kids if i ever get married. for some reason, i feel very awed and impressed by my colleagues who have like alot of childrens. its realli stupid and lonely to be an only child. and i wont have like one child 10 years after one another. THEY'd all be around the same age. so its cool, i'll probably work my guts out to provide for them.

 

=( and they wouldnt be able to get like 12 jeans per person. but im sure they can share.

 

oh and u know cos i type edusavey stuff at my work place. i see loads of names of the students (who range from ages 7 to 15) and then i kinda imagine what they are like. some of them are easier to imagine. some have cool names and i imagine them to be the cooler people or summat. and some have realli funny silly names. i kinda have a list of names i wanna use for my kids already. =D BUT THEN AGAIN, the name has to sound good with the father's surname.

 

so yeah, what forr plan so earlies. i dont even have a bf yet.

 

oh, and some parents i believe they are out to ridicule their kids. they think they are very funny. honestly, dont know what the hell are they thinking.

 

 

and i ebuddy abits now at work. and email. but my cubicle is very conspicous, its like my monitor faces the doorway. so i mean, its highly probable that people see what im doing. so im like so restricted to what i can do. here are some pictures.. =)